hello, all.

not sure if you guys are still following me, or even care to follow me anymore. i haven't posted anything in awhile, and to tell you the truth, it's bc i've had the worst creative slump i've ever experienced. i try to write, nothing comes out. i try to draw, i crumple it and toss it to the side. *sigh*

in personal news, after spending a beautiful halloween weekend together, my fiancé called me on friday to tell me he couldn't marry me. that he was in love with two girls, and i wasn't the one he loved more. this came as a shock, a very big, big, shock. the girl he's leaving me for is the type that only wants what she can't have, and only if she can't have it. i'm praying, along with all my close friends, that she rejects him. it's exactly what he deserves.

in light of that, i'm hoping this will help my slump. that i can feed off this pain and heartache, and finally light a fire under my creative self. that i can finally start my life again. something new, something fresh.

something strong.

soooooooo afo was this past weekend, and i'm glad doppleganger convinced me to go along with her! it was a chance for us to get out our digi cosplay again, and i can't believe we had forgotten just how much fun we have as davis and flamedramon. seriously. digiteam ftw. so the con wasn't AS impressive as before, but i finally got to meet all the vas i've been wanting to! except travis... grr... overall, had an awesome time. except for constantly being overlooked in terms of cosplay. but i guess that's understandable, when you're next to a giant, flamboyantly turquoise, armor-clad cosplayer with a tail and ears. but oh well, at least one person came up to me and was delighted to see my davis cosplay and the workmanship that went into that damn jacket and boots when flamey wasn't anywhere to be seen. hmm... one out of a couple hundred? maybe there really is hope!

where should i start?

well... i never made it to metrocon. which seriously sucked.

my digital camera decided to go completely haywire, so i now have no photography capabilities whatsoever. and considering the price of a getting a new one, i won't have these capabilities back any time soon.

my mum took my laptop away from me, so i haven't been on here in quite some time. and even though i'm on it now, i don't know when i'll "officially" have it back, so there's a lot of art that i have, but i won't be able to post anything for the next couple months, probably. (esp since classes start on monday. mah.)

afo is on saturday, and even though we were hardcore planning on going together, my ride there decided that she wasn't going after all, so i now have no way to get to the con. which SERIOUSLY sucks, bc it was like the one thing i was looking forward to before i got sucked into the hellhole that is bcc. not to mention the fact that i'd be able to actually MEET travis willingham if i went. which is a personal life goal, btw.

ugh.

oh, and since my mum also decided to take my cell away from me, i've been out of touch with everyone in my life.


so, alas, i apologize for not having any new deviations up, and for that fact that i prob won't have any up for at least the next month.

:<

now that the semester is over, my life feels... surreal.


and empty.



jacon was this past weekend, and it was AMAZING.

i ended up not finishing my jacket until like 10 am on friday, which was an annoyance in and of itself... you see, my sewing machine decided to CRAP OUT on me for about three hours, so i wasn't the happiest of campers... *sigh*

anyways, i shall be posting pictures of my cosplay (and the frivolities) as soon as i relocate that damn cord... *grumbles* stupid college boxes...


well, now that jacon is over, and my daisuke cosplay is finished, i need to start work on my hayner cosplay for metrocon... (not to mention start convincing a certain someone to cosplay seifer...)

but, alas! i have until july.

so instead of studying for my final tomorrow (today, actually--at noon.), i decided to upload a whoooooooole lot of deviations that i've been meaning to upload, but haven't yet.

so yeah.

enjoy.